The Power of Worship - Experience/ Encouragement

Umm, Woah! 

God is good Amen? 

So lets just get right into this.. this past week, two, month or two? Not too sure when it started, but a little thing called doubt popped into my head. What is doubt & what kind of doubt you ask? Well...

doubt

verb (used with object)

1.

to be uncertain about; consider questionable or unlikely;hesitate to believe.

2.

to distrust.

3.

Archaic . to fear; be apprehensive about.

verb (used without object)

4.

to be uncertain about something; be undecided in opinion orbelief.
noun

5.

a feeling of uncertainty about the truth, reality, or nature ofsomething. <--- THIS ONE

6.

distrust.

7.

a state of affairs such as to occasion uncertainty.

8.

Obsolete . fear; dread.

Yes.. number five.. that's the one! :S 

Lets back up a bit...

God, loves when we love Him and when we bring others to Him. It's what we were created and called to do! 

Satin, on the other hand HATES when God uses/brings people to Him.

To the POINT-

At/after camp. I found God working more through me then in me. This was a very tough time for me, because it made me feel spiritually weak and far from God.

I would be discouraged when someone would tell me all these experiences they've had, that God spoke to them, or if He showed himself to them. 

I would wonder why nothing ever happened like that to me or why God did not wanna show His face to me. 

This is when all the doubt came in.

I became to doubt that God was real and what I was experiencing was real. I lacked the knowledge to know what I was actually experiencing and what God was doing in me. 

Until Sunday Night...

I was at a worship night for my friends church. The band playing was the band from camp (aka friends of mine). When this worship team plays... I can always feel something from God. Weither its peace, joy, hope, or love.

This night was different. I stood singing all my favorite songs from camp and doing the actions, until one of my favorite worship song "Come Away" played. I could not just stand there. A feeling impossible to ignore. I went and sat by myself against the wall. At this time I felt like it was just God and I. No one around me, just me and him. He was singing the song to me. As I raised my hands..

Strong Sensation on my hand

Thought in my head

He was telling me to believe and know that this was the night. 

With the confusion on why my hand would not open and the smile on my face would not go away. I said my goodbyes and headed on home. 

When I had got home, I ended up having a fantastic talk with one of my campers. It was an eye opener to me, when the advise I ended up giving her was advise I should take for myself. At times like these I would get discouraged and think I was terrible to God. Not giving Him the time of day.. just reading my Bible or praying. 

But that night was different, still after like two hours of when the feeling in my hand started it was still there. I felt not discouraged but motivated and encouraged to go and read my Bible and pray. So, that's exactually what I did. 

I read the parts in my Bible that were Highlighted & Underlined. I came across a verse that concluded everything. 

Acts 13: 46-52

Not only was it the verses that struck me but it was the "Instant Access" on the side that related to these verses. 

I will even share it with you; 

"The devil doesnt bother some Christians. Like believers who go along with the crowd or who keep quiet about their relationship with Jesus. The person who doesn't go along with the crowd and who shares their faith is the one who gets persecuted. It happen in Acts. Persecution was stirred up when "the word of the Lord spread" (Acts 13:49). So if you start a morning prayer group or if a couple people become Christians through your witness, don't be surprised if you face opposition. It's not much fun, but if persecution does come, it tells you that you are getting to Satan and becoming a spiritual success!" 

That wowed me! I mean at camp with being a counselor and everything.. I've had encouraged, shared my testimony, shared God's word & love, practiced my gifts, and even had a New-Born Christian in my life. 

These verses and access completely changed the way I view what God is doing not only through me but in me. I mean at my weakest time with doubt ... God was not giving up on me and He won the battle with Satan once again. 

This is not just something for me... its something for all of us. We are all going to have times where this will happen to us. Maybe you wont get doubt, but something else. 

REMEMBER: God has already won the battle... And he'll get you through it! 

God makes all things work together for our good! 

This verse just popped out in front of me and I thank God it did! That evening, worshiping God, the sensation on my hand, thoughts in my head, and unfading smile on my face was the preparation for what God did for me at night!

And I ask myself now... How can I have doubt?!

 So God is Good... AMEN?! 

God Bless,

Hailey